Mother’s Guilt Go Away
Once I woman has a child, does life become all about them?
On the eve of the day I am to leave my 6-year-old son for 2 months I’m not sure that I am ready.
My suitcase is not ready nor is my heart.
I’m extremely grateful to be able to have my child cared for by his grandparents (thank you!!!) for an extended period but I fear that he will not understand. Actually, I don’t even know if I understand.
Although I know he will be in the best possible care, I can’t help but to feel that, as his mother, I am the only one who can care for him properly. I know that’s ridiculous. But what if he feels abandon?
Right now, he says very little to me when I ask him. There is a hint of sadness when I mention my leaving but, at 6-years-old he doesn’t express his feelings in the form of words. And there have been no tears.
I know I have to be a big girl and he will have to be a big little boy and we will both have to deal with it as it is.
I am fortunate to be able to do this. Not many mothers get the chance to take a break from motherhood and go off as a single to the other side of the world. I almost feel like I have no right to do it.
There is no denying that I need the break. I love my boy……my full-on, energetic, playful, smart, gorgeous, thrill-seeking, adventurous wee boy. After a 2-month long sojourn to Canada, I hope to be a better mother on my return.
My mission is to enjoy the journey!