So, today I feel good. Maybe even great.
To be honest, I’ve been quite down lately.
I’ve even been having some scary panic attacks.
I think it’s the changes I’ve made. As much as I want to accept it, I’m struggling with the decision.
I’m such an all or nothing kind of person that I fell into a void and adopted the attitude of, “I can’t be assed to do anything”.
And little have I done. Or at least, in my mind, I have done little this month.
My reporting paycheque is going to possibly be the lowest I’ve had since I started with the paper back in August 2012. And that scares the hell out of me.
I know I have issues with money and I need to change that. I need to forget about the money side of EVERYTHING!
It’s hard to do.
But today, I stuck to my proposed schedule and I actually accomplished some stuff.
I’m working on a new website, which is really exiting.
I feel like I’m motivated again.
And if I can stick to my weekly roster (at reduced hours in the “office”) I may just beat my anxiety and depression.
And the upside to my melancholy is that I’m back to reading!! Before, my mind was too busy to sit down with a novel but now, I’ve devoured 2 romance novels in less than 2 weeks! That has also inspired me to get back to working on my own novel.
March 27, 2014 at 3:55 am
Hang in there, Jen…changes like you’re making are tough, but sometimes necessary for your health.