I’ve just stuffed down a piece of homemade (by me) pumpkin pie topped with fresh whipped cream. I had to force it down because I am so full from dinner: 3/4 of a veggie pizza and 3 beer.
Yes, I’m on a binge.
No, I’m not happy with myself.
I’ve had a shithouse day full of disappointment and self-induced stress but nevermind that, the binge was premeditated.
See, tomorrow is the start of another health kick or health booster as I’m calling this latest stint.
I’ve fallen back into the habit of drinking alcohol everyday, whether I really feel like it or not and my eating habits are getting slack as well.
I’ve been baking too.
Banana cake, chocolate chip cookies, muffins…and of course, I eat it! The muffins…yummy!
I’ve also had a hamburger and I don’t even eat RED MEAT!!! Damn, it was delicious!
I said it before. I love food. I like to have a beer or two on a hot day. I love homemade baked goods and I’m pretty good at making yummy things. But it’s now time to listen to my body.
I’ve had a few headaches lately and my respiratory system is becoming clogged up again. Thankfully, I still have my sense of smell and taste, which is great but also makes it hard for me to resist good food. And when I hear the word resist, I think of Eckhart Tolle when he says:
“What you resist, persists”
I truly feel ill at the moment. I’ve eaten so much tonight that I feel sick but I am still thinking, ‘only 3 hours left of today, then it’s back on the wagon, what else can I eat?’
But I cannot eat or drink another thing tonight so for the next 4 weeks (minus Oct 27th when I have dinner plans in Perth), I will be on my health booster which will include the following guidelines:
On the menu
Protein: Chicken, fish, eggs, yogurt, chickpeas, beans, nuts, seeds
Carbs/Starch: Brown rice, oats, gluten-free pasta
Oils: olive, sesame
Dairy: Greek yogurt, sheep’s feta
Veg: All except carrot, corn, potatoes
Fruit: ONLY berries, green apple, pear, lemon, lime
Drinks: Decaf tea/coffee, soy/rice milk, water – NO ALCOHOL or SUGAR Drinks
Limit sugar, fat, processed foods
10 minutes meditation Daily
5 Healing Tibetans/yoga (15min) Daily
20 minutes (min) of cardio 4 times per week (M*, T, Th*, Sat)
1.5 hour yoga class Wednesday
* Training with Mr M
I do not need to lose weight, just tone and get rid of the beer bloat. I know for sure that I feel and look better when I cut out all the junk that my body doesn’t need. Gosh, I know I sound like a broken record and I truly hope that someday I will get to where I want to be. For now, I will get back up after I have fallen…again and again and again.
The thing is, I secretly look forward to these “restricted” periods. For some reason, I cannot go without unless I give myself a date and some rules. Control issues? Probably, but whatever works at the time.
October and November is a great time to get healthy before the Christmas season kicks off. Nobody in their right mind tries a health plan or restricted diet during that time!!
If you’re trying a new eating regime, remember this: it’s hard work and you really need to want it bad enough to be successful at it. (Yes, I’m talking to myself here…lol.)