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I want to stay here forever

relax garden


Well hello there. It’s been awhile.

I was a little surprised when I realised my last post was on May 15th.

I’ve been on a slow, very slow climb to recovery. Not physically, that’s yet to come but mentally I feel I’m on other side of blah…the good side.

I’ve been stress free for at least a week, maybe more. I have slipped into an existence of being. I do things but not in a hectic, control-freak way. I just do what needs to be done or feels like the right time to be doing it at the time. I don’t over analyse things as much. I’m certainly not freaking out about rejections from an editor or whether I can afford this that or the other. I’m buying a Kindle on Tuesday.

I’ve wanted one since my BFF Gillian lent me hers to read, Fifty Shades Darker last June.  For some reason, I never got one. I’ve bought several paper books since then though; enough to have bought a Kindle and a few ebooks. Well, I’ve decided I want one so I’m getting one when I go to the city next week.

Next week, I’m going to the city to my “procedure”. This is how one acquaintance put it the other day so now it’s the term to describe the colonoscopy and gastroenterology I am having on Tuesday. I’m looking forward to it. I  have been eating nonstop wheat and gluten since I saw the specialist on May 9th. I’m getting used to having tummy rumbles and ruptures. I may miss them when I give up gluten again after Monday (I can’t eat any solids the day before the “procedure”).

Having the “procedure” may stress some people because of “going under the knife” but I’m not worried. I’m loving my daily life at the moment. As I said, I’m not stressing. I do wonder if this is a good thing or not; sometimes I’m afraid this slow speed won’t gather enough momentum to take me far in my creative career but I don’t dwell on that. It’s passing thoughts.

What’s helped me so much is reading. I have finished Marianne Williamson’s A Return to Love and now I’m nearly finished Pat Mesiti’s A $1 Million Reason to Change your Mind. It’s a book about prosperity and how you need to change your mindset to be prosperous. It’s so good and so helpful. Of course, I have known for many years that mindset plays a major part in how prosperous your life will be and for me, it’s been easy to forget that notion as well. I need reminders a lot, especially when I let my mind revert back to negative thinking and depression.

To overcome this inbred affliction, I am now (once again) focussing on what I want in my life and tossing to the side what I don’t want. I have made a vision board (something I have done many times before) and I am doing what needs to be done in the moment. I feel relaxed, calm and at ease in what I do.

I’m in a good great place and I want to stay here forever.

What are you doing to take care of your mental health? 






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Aspirations, intentions, wishes, dreams, goals for 2013

So, here it is, my last post for 2012. And based on today alone, I cannot wait for this year to end. And so I look forward to 2013 but not too much as I want to focus on the NOW. But there is always a time and place for planning and that time is NOW.

My goals are not outlandish, far-fetching, crazy, unachievable day dreams; they are within my reach.


 book and pen

  • Sell at least one article to Good Health magazine in JANUARY
  • Go to Sydney for ‘How to write a chick-lit novel’ 2-day course – Feb 2nd
  • Sell one piece per month to a glossy magazine (health, wellbeing, travel, parenting)
  • Sell one piece per month to an online magazine/website
  • Continue to freelance for West Australian Newspapers (regional) with an average monthly income of $700
  • Boost yearly income to 5 digits
  • Finish novel – 1997
  • Have novel edited by a professional editor
  • Submit novel to publisher
  • Sharpen photography skills
  • Start candid photography biz
  • Afford new camera equipment



  • Eat a low carb diet
  • Find a balance between “good” and “bad” foods
  • Limit alcohol
  • Limit sugar
  • Retain sense of smell and taste




  • Meditate daily
  • Complete Tracy Anderson’s 30-day method challenge (Jan 3- Feb 1 inclusive)
  • Yoga weekly
  • Fitness class twice weekly
  • Focus on the NOW
  • Stay positive
  • Do not speak if I do not have anything good to say (sacred silence rights the Universe~Marianne Williamson)



  • Sydney
  • Malaysia
  • Vietnam
  • Cambodia
  • Bali
  • Winter Christmas (Japan?)

Now, it’s time to bring this year to a close with a refreshing pina colada because I’m absolutely melting here (it’s 40 degrees Celsius and for all of you in the cold, THIS IS NOT FUN. And yes, I am a bit lot irritable!!!).

But please have a Happy New Year and come back here in 2013!!

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To The People of Vancouver: I Salute You

How many strangers did you speak to today? How many of them did you actually have a conversation with?

I have met some lovely people during my 9 days in Vancouver and with this post, I’d like to tell you about them.

The person who had the biggest affect on me was Richard Reynolds. He is a pilates instructor at YYoga on Burrard Street. I attended 2 of his classes and wish I had of stumbled into his class earlier. I have never had so much fun doing exercise in all my life. Imagine laughing out loud while in plank or after doing the 100.

“I love this stuff. I can do the 100 all day long.”

“I am strong.”

These are the kinds of statements he would ask us to repeat, loudly, during class! And at the end of class, “I am beautiful. I am very beautiful. The Universe loves me very much.”

He’s a true gem and I implore you to take his class if you are ever in Vancouver.

Rich Reynolds, I salute you.

The day I went to Grounds for Coffee for an indulgence of their ooey, gooey goodness of a soft, sugar and spice sweet bread swirl called a cinnamon bun,


I met Jason, a young Brit in Vancouver on a working holiday.

I sat beside him in the comfy chair section and had no intention of striking up a conversation with him but after he jumped up to assist an elderly couple in the door, I verbally applauded him. From there, we got to know each over a hot cuppa and sweet bread. Jason impressed me with his manners and the fact that he is making the most with his life. He’s doing stuff that makes him happy and it shows.

Jason, I salute you.

Earlier that same day, I hulled my ass up to the Capilano Suspension Bridge.  I’ve always steered cleared of this place because of my fear of bridges…..walking over bridges specifically.

But, there is a new attraction there called the Cliff Walk, which is a walk-way projected out from the cliff side. I thought, “Sure, no problem.” Well, I found it hard to let go of the railings on my shuffling toward the middle, where an older lady was just standing, enjoying the view.

I thought to myself, ‘She’ll be the perfect person to take a photo of me.’ And she did. That’s it below.

Photo by Nice Lady

But she did more than that. She engaged in a conversation about skydiving and life in general and it was nice; friendly and warm. And our chatting continued up the stairs and down the planked path to the glass shelf look-out. I was hesitant about stepping on it but she took my hand and pulled me on. Sometimes, that’s all we need; gentle, loving guidance and for someone to say it’ll be ok. And that’s what she did for me. She spoke of wanting to do a tandem skydive someday and I egged her on. I hope she does it and I wish I could be there to hold her hand but I won’t be. Some things you just have to push yourself to do on your own.

And it was on my own that I crossed that damn suspension bridge!! The first go was terrifying and I held both sides of the railing while shadowing an equally terrified woman the entire way. On the way back though, I did it mostly hands-free while chanting to myself, “I AM FEARLESS.” I even stopped and asked another stranger to take a photo of me. I was inspired by the kindness of the nice lady on the cliff walk – I wish I had of asked her name.

Although I did the walk hands-free, I held on for the photo!!! Poo.

Nice Lady in North Vancouver, I salute you!!

When I spent an afternoon at Granville Island, I stopped to take a sneaky photo of a working wizard, or magician if you like and had no intention of being the subject of a magic trick but suddenly, I found myself at his side.

Dave Moon is his name and I was blown away by his abilities. I don’t know how he did it, but he actually read my mind. Scary, I know. It wasn’t just a close enough guess, it was spot on. He also did a card trick that he told me was slight of hand, but damn, he was very slick. In his deck of cards, there are many signatures: one per card. These signatures belong to the up and coming actors who work in the movies being filmed in Vancouver, or anyone who may be famous someday. I told him that I will be famous one day so he let me pick any free card to sign. My card is the 8 of hearts. Thanks Dave!!!

With Dave Moon

Dave Moon, I salute you.

At my request, I met Independent Travel Writer, John Lee. He’s a successful freelance writer and he was very generous with his time, information and advice about the industry. I respect him and I’m so grateful to him for taking time out of his busy schedule to meet with me. I definitely owe him a beer – thanks for paying because I did not have cash on me (and believe it or not, The Railway Club does not take EFTPOS).  Thanks, John.

John Lee, I salute you.

Over the past week, I’ve learned to not be afraid of people. Something that sticks with me from the I CAN DO IT conference is the message of cooperation that we could have with each other instead of wars and fighting. Imagine that? If we all cooperated, would there be any such thing as WAR?

Talk to each other. We are all human. We all want to be loved and needed. You could be the difference to someone’s day just by saying hello with a smile. That smile and kind word may lead to a conversation that may lead to a friendship that may lead to a relationship that may lead to abundance in each other’s lives.

Marianne Williamson gave us all a great gift when she asked us to project love to strangers (without their knowledge) by thinking the words, “The love in me salutes the love in you”. I actually do this several times a day now and I believe it is impossible to be grumpy, angry or depressed during this practice. Try it and see.

I salute you all!!!


I CAN DO IT, but I won’t.

I spent the past weekend attending the Hay House conference, I CAN DO IT here in Vancouver. Honestly, it was fabulous!

I could go on and on about how fabulous it was, but I won’t.

I could tell you that the presence in a room of 3000 like-minded people is of love and calmness.

I could tell you that listening to Wayne Dyer speak for nearly 3 hours was not only inspiring but soul touching. He spoke with such knowing and experience that it was hard not to be entranced. There’s something so pure and honest about seeing a  man show emotion as he talks of a moving, personal experience. I won’t even bother saying how beautiful it was to hear his daughter, Skye sing to him and all of us.

I could tell you that Marianne Williamson is a funny woman…..I wasn’t expecting that. I could also relay the story of how she (lovingly) told off a woman who was seeking advice on how to deal with her unconscious partner. I wasn’t expecting that!! That an evolved, spiritual person who preaches about self- love to also be bluntly candid!!! She was my favorite presenter. She was is awesome!!!

Me with Marianne Williamson

I could tell you how Doreen Virtue gave comfort to a woman who had just lost her young daughter to cancer and how the entire audience felt her pain then relief. And how she gave the grieving mum a hug, special gifts and words.

Or how Louise Hay and Cheryl Richardson joked and laughed on stage and basically just let us sit in on one of  their  conversations. I could let you in on the secrets that they carry in their bras, but I won’t.

Louise Hay signing books.

Cheryl Richardson signing books.














I could gush on and on about how giving and practical Robert Holden was and how he engaged us all with his witty dialogue. His British accent was a surprise….I had no idea he was British.

I wish I could tell you how they all wanted the message of change to get through to everyone. We are in a great time of change and consciousness is on the rise. But you had to be there to fully feel and understand the message.

I could ramble on and on about how I sat there in awe of these inspirational humans and how I long to be like them. I could sing out the words of love and praise I now have for myself after their gentle guidance. But I won’t do all that.

What I will tell you is this: After I left that conference, I ate a light dinner then went to a warm yin yoga class. Upon leaving that class, I did not walk: I floated. In the middle of a bustling city, I floated with ease and grace to a place that has been within me all along. And I may not stay here at all times, but it is this place where I will always return. Namaste.